Max

Sometimes a picture does say a thousand words. This was the day of my Mom's funeral.

Mom

I am really truly having a hard time with losing Mom. I want to put on a brave face and go out and face the world. I do some. but large groups are not for me right now.

Ok God says he won't give you more than you can handle but sometimes it seems unfair. Mom gets over one thing to get other and more than one. I know God has a plan but i wish that he would send me an email and let us all know.

why do i

tears are flowing down my face as i try to imagine what it would be like to never have a family at all. Think about growing up in a hospital. how cold would that be? what kind of person would you end up being? I looked at one of the adopt kids websites so many kids with no home. Famous people adopt all the time oversees babies why not take your money and help this child that the world views as unloveable because of age or a medical condition. I wish that i could take all of them in and love them. I need to stay away from those websites.

soo excited

she went to girl's camp and comes home tomorrow. Even Princess has been whining through out the house.

pray

Sometimes it is a struggle.

We all like to think that life is all peaches and creams but I must admit that life stinks for the most part for me right now. I am having a hard time seeing the silver lining in this dark cloud. Maybe it is God telling me that I don't trust him enough.