Am I ready.

I want to go to Heaven I think most everyone does. The problem that i face is not saying sorry and loving God now it is my prayer and study life. I have decided that I will not go all three times to services and make it a have to thing and not something that I look forward to and love to do. I know that some might think that this is wrong and maybe I might again later too but for now I want to want to go not feeling forced or that it is just a habit. I love to learn and love to study but understanding and accepting things have not always been my strong suit. Please pray for me I grow in my Christian life.